I woke up this morning...

and I felt like posting. I guess like all things you love, certain things have a way of coming back to you and reclaiming what's theirs. I haven't posted since the beginning of the new year and now I sit, comfortably at my work station, wondering when did I fall out of love with my thoughts.

Where do I begin? I am happy. LoL. I wish there was a more creative means of me typing that but that is certainly just it. It amazing what love can do and what life cannot undo. The way that I feel now, I dare life to try to undo it. From departing with my hair (that I've heard lately was my signature), ending a relationship/ friendship, and beginning one that I hope only unfolds new elements and introduces complete serenity; life has been so good to me.

Sometimes, I must say that I feel alone. My brother moved to La with my sister and I realized that I am here and they are there. They are creating memorable memories without me, and I am at a place where I swore I would never be-- at home. I often wonder, why is it meant for some to leave and others to stay. Then I think, why I am not living in some huge city, having loads of funs, and then I realize those that do, don't appreciate it and now I know happiness is not where you go but truly where the heart is (I understand that saying now). Before my brother left, I was filled with mixed emotions, I was happy he was leaving because I felt as though it would be a second chance for him, but I guess I miss him. He also made me realize I miss my sister. I hate that my brother and I relationship is so terrible but hopefully time heal those wounds. He thinks I am "too judgemental" and "too good", and I think he needs to grow up and stop makinge excuses-- I love him though. It really hurts my feelings and does something to my soul but I will be okay. I refuse to discuss my true feelings or hurt because I just do not understand it. Anyhoo, I digress.

I have major things coming up in my life. Namely, my play that is going to be produced later in the summer. I am looking forward to the reaction of my audience and I must say I am afraid. I know it is not good to worry and it is good to have confidence, but I am still unsure. I feel that it is good, but there again, I am trying to think how everyone else will view it and I just do not know. I am proud of my cast though-- some of them. The ones that I have been there since April have really come a long way. I am thankful for them and their trust in me. My church built me my very own stage-- isn't that sweet. I am blessed.

My book is well on its way, and I feel that I am will be finished by my birthday (that's if I sit down and actually work) I have been preoccupied.

I have four trips lined up this summer and I am sooo excited. I finally will be able to go to Chicago, enjoy Tan, T, and Quesha in New Orleans and Florida, and then visit the Kid in Atl. So, as you see, July is a busy, busy, busy month, but I need it. I am working this month and that is nooo fun.

Be blessed.